Why do relationships have to be worked so hard at??
I have spent the past 12 years of my life with a man who has only ever once told me he loved me and that was only because we lost a baby!!
It all came to a head the other night (and the following morning). A couple of weeks ago he came home from a night out with the lads and showed no interest at all. It has now been that he constantly comes to bed later than usual with the excuse that he was watching something on tv. He never does this, he always comes up and reads for a while.
He went out last Friday night and promised he wouldnt go out Saturday night but he did, and came back an hour after he said he would.
I flat out asked him if he was 'shagging' someone else which he denied (of course) so I said he was either doing that, finds me physically repulsive or has got a problem.
He didnt answer any of that as I knew he wouldnt. He cannot express his feelings at all and although I am in no doubt that he does love - why the bloody hell cant he tell me????
I find this the most frustrating - I constantly crave affection (maybe that's because of my childhood, who knows. He has told me before that he finds it hard to say how he feels - should I just accept that?? I am sure this will all blow over eventually but do sometimes wonder what I am doing with someone who cant say how he feels - at the moment it feels as if he hates me 
